Day 1!!!!!!

Today I have had 2 scrambled eggs with cheese and a mini bagel with butter for breakfast. For lunch I had a romaine lettuce salad with baby carrots, cheese, and italian dressing. I'm feeling pretty good so far! I have my little brother's 16th birthday dinner tonight though and we're going to Joe's Crab Shack....my favorite place to eat. We shall see how this goes. My very supportive friend, Audra, tells me that I can do it as a pesce-vegetarian and eat some seafood. Not so bad! I will update tomorrow!!!

New Beginnings!!

I am attempting something new. For this week, I am going to try to be a vegetarian and if everything goes well, I may possibly be one for awhile! It seems like I have been getting very sick lately from pork and beef and I'm just very sick of it! I did a catering job with my husband and mother-in-law and I, being the glutton and stressed person that I am, had a HEAPING pile of pulled pork all throughout the day! By the time I got home, I was coughing and dry heaving so much that I threw up. This wasn't the first time this has happened before too. Its happened SEVERAL times and I'm extremely sick of being sick! This has got to end! I start tomorrow! I have got to get slimmed down for Miami and my cruise in August, which I am EXTREMELY excited for!!!!! My friends, THE DOWNINGS have enlightened me and I MUST do this for atleast one week! I can do it! I have faith in myself!

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I haven't blogged in forever but I finally found some inspiration!!! August 28th is the day I takemy first cruise...with my wonderful husband and wonderful friends!!!!! I am beyond excited for this day to come!! I sometimes feel awkward for the amount of exclamation points that I use but its the best way that I can express my excitement!

Its going to be hard to save all the money we need so we are getting our FIRST credit card just in case! This is SO scary for me! I'm awful at saving money and if I know its there, its going to get spent! We are so serious about this that we have figured our money and only taken money out for bills and gas to Fort Scott for school. NO GROCERY SHOPPING until this is paid for or we have our credit card....which ever comes first!

I have the sudden urge to listen to nothing BUT tropical songs! The Beach Boys' Kokomo!!!!We're going to Lawrence tomorrow and I'm SURE that we will talk about this some more!!!

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EXCITED!!!!!

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ATTENTION PLEASE!!!

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So.....you guys need to either come here or we can come there because I am suffering from Audraheathsieralessness syndrome!

THAT IS ALL!

School...loving it, and other rants and raves!

First off, I absolutely love Cosmetology school! I don't think that I have ever made a better decision in my life thus far, except for the decision to get married to my husband of course! We've already learned so much in this first week and I can't wait to learn everything else. My life will FINALLY be STABLE this year! Stewy will have his job probably by March and I will be out of school and in a salon, hopefully by October! There just isn't words to describe how happy and excited I am for this year! Its going to be SUPERCALIFRAGILISTICEXPEALIDOCIOUS! I have never been so happy to wake up before 6 am!

There's a 44 year old woman in my class. She's a great woman and she's beautiful just the way she is. She's got extremely long blonde hair and everyone, including the teacher, wanted to see her updated a little bit. Miss Margo gave her long layers and fringe. Then, Jordyn, curled her hair and Amber put her makeup on her. Total transformation. She looked absolutely GORGEOUS! She loved it so much that she started crying. I can't wait to make my clients feel like that. I want to make already beautiful people, FEEL beautiful! I took pics after her makeover was done, but I wish I could have gotten before pictures.

Okay. So, on to my rants and raves. I have been watching a lot of 'Teen Mom' lately and the more I see Farrah on there, the more mad I get about my own situation. I don't see how someone can be so irresponsible when they are blessed with such a little miracle. I want that SO bad! How can she say that she's a mother and a teenager, and teenagers are supposed to go out and have fun!? When you have that child, YOU are a MOTHER first! You took on the responsibility of having that child when you decided to spread your legs! I am sorry, but I get just a little bit bitter when I see awful parents in this world that could care less about their children and also, the one's who would rather be a friend to their child than a parent. You have GOT to be a parent first and a friend second otherwise your children aren't going to respect you! I know for a fact I would be a great Momma and I want it so badly! I know that God will give us one when He knows we are ready. But, I honestly think I am ready NOW! We're pretty much financially stable now and it will only get better from here on out.

When my parents were trying for a third baby, they were barely into their 30's and they couldn't do it. They were going to the doctor all of the time to get tested. Nothing was wrong with either of them, they just couldn't conceive. My mom got down on herself and down on God. That was one of the saddest times of my life. To this day, my dad doesn't know about this. My mom was starting to think that God doesn't control EVERYTHING. And I'm a huge believer in fate so this mad me upset. Well, anyway, she FINALLY realized that everything happens for a reason and everything was good again. I hope I will never be like that. Maybe since I already believed in fate at such a young age that I won't even think of that. I want a baby with my husband more than anything in this world, but I'm not going to give up on my beliefs in the process.

Oh! And, by the way, FRINGE is bangs, if you didn't already know that. We can't call it bangs anymore because in Europe it means your private parts and cosmetology is international so we have all of the same terms!!!

What I'm Thankful For This Year....

I'm thankful for everything and everyone God has put into my life, but this year, I am also thankful for what He hasn't put in my life.

Sounds kind of odd, huh?

Not so much though.

I wanted my husband to have a job, but in all reality, I have loved all of the extra time that I have gotten to spend with him. Last year in El Dorado, he was working full time and going to school full time and I hardly got to see him. I couldn't wait until the weekends when we could finally travel the hour and a half back home to our families. Sure, I loved seeing my family, but I hadn't really gotten to see my husband all week and those 2 short days were like Heaven to me.

I'm also thankful for one other thing that I wasn't given. I wanted to be pregnant so bad. I realize now that, that wasn't a very good idea right now, and I know that God could see this, even if I couldn't. I know me and Stewy are ready for one mentally and physically, but not financially. When we have one, we are going to want to spoil that child, almost to a fault. And right now, that is just not possible. At first I was upset about this, but I know that our time will come. I start Fort Scott Cosmetology School in January and more than likely, this time next year, I will be in a salon, doing something that I truly love and am going to enjoy doing for the rest of my life. After that, I am sure we will be ready for one. But, until then, I'm going to be very very busy!

I'm so thankful that Stewy is finally supporting me on this career choice.

On another note, I am extremely excited for Christmas! I've already gotten my mom and grandma's presents. We still have to get presents for my dad, brother, Stewy's mom, dad, brother, sister, brother-in-law, grandma, and our niece. Whew! That is a mouthful!

The present I am most excited for is my husband's, of course. I know exactly what I want to get him, and I know he will love it. But, of course, he will already know what it is when he opens it because he is the best present guesser in the world. Maybe I will hide it, wrapped, until Christmas. I would be kind of like Mrs. Claus!

AHHH! I am SO excited!

49 Days until the best day of the year!

Love and Money

I really thought this was going to be my husband's break. Sure, he wants to be a firefighter, and yeah, that's what he's going to school for, but does that mean that he shouldn't be given the chance to have a different job in a different field that would also help him further his career in firefighting? I'm so freaked out about money now!

I called my student loan company and they told me I wouldn't be put on financial aid probation and I wouldn't have to pay back any of the money if I was enrolled in a new school by next semester. Then, I called Pitt State today and they told me I would more than likely have to pay them. AND....I can't receive any financial aid until I got all of that paid

I just feel like crawling into bed and never getting out of it again!

Why does money have to be such a prized posession these days?! My dad is hardly getting any business anymore which means, I am usually only working there, at most, 5 hours a day and only 3 days a week.....

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Although we are having some financial problems right now, I know that we are truly blessed. Things could be alot worse. As long as we are still in love, which we are, and have our health....Love and God will see us through anything and everything!